when you fall off the earth

I am alive just in case you were wondering. So i started my internship/ school for ministry, it is crazy awesome! it is such a huge shift because i moved out of town, just got my licence and have to do this like an adult. Its really scary but extremely incredible.
I have a million different things going on so i am trying to balance them all out from what is necessary (no more endless hours of netflix) to what i can cut out. Its only been three weeks but i feel like my life changed overnight.
Also i have my jewelry that i am going to be putting on etsy so keep watch of that and there will be giveaways!!!
I am really stocked about my crazy busy life and i hope i can take you along with me and i don't fall off the face of the earth again.


love meagan

7-11-13

neglected plants, bathroom mess, outfit plans, makeup mess, nice words, kids drawings, and imaginary words.

Thursdays are always the days that i feel like i'm playing catch up for the beginning of the week. Since i missed the first week of July i'm a lot behind, but its okay. Today i will get tons of stuff done, while i  listen to deafening loud music.

Good day to you
XO-Meagan

Happy Official day of Summer

Sunshine, plants, dance parties, paints, art journalist, midnight snack making, movie marathons, night bike rides, book worming, sleeping in, long baths, swimming, pretending to be a mermaid, beaches, camping, smores, swim suites, bug bites, people stacking, summer outfits, refocusing, crafting and family time

MAY

Its may! It took me a day to realize that this year is flying, so as they are leaving so fast i am trying to love each one. This semester has been really crazy busy and i haven't been online very much. But the semester is winding down and i have a million things planned for myself, my blog, my work, my down time, and the passion that i lost through it all.

So may I'm happy to embrace you and all of your abruptness!
Hello focus, being an adult, craft time, mail time, and family time. Welcome work days, exercise, job hunting, and time management. I will get: my licence, start my shop, be happy, read a book, make playlists and drink alot of tea.

Back to square one

Losing site of who you are is the worst things one can do.
Being caught in what everyone else what's you to be is the second worst things.

So after regaining my site, i realized that i was someone completely different of who i really am.
I am:
a note taker
monster maker
last one to EVER find TRENDS
immature
cartoon watcher
HEAVY make-up wearer
not cool
moody
wear clothes due to emotion of the day
accessories wearer
horrible picture taker
maker of cute things
alter all my clothes
coffee hater
not a vegan or vegetarian

This is not at all to offended anyone, this is just a push me stat for me that i lost focus of. I wanted so bad to be a blogger that i started following what people did and forgot about the real things i loved.
I started this blog to build relationships with fellow d.i.yer's, a journal of my style, adventures that i went on, talking about heavy make-up, and just random things that come to mind.

Life

Life has been utterly insane lately.
I painted my room. All my stuff is everywhere.
August is coming up fast. I'm not even half way with my 40 before 20.
My computer gave out. Also the backup computer got the blue screen of death.
I don't have a computer to put up any blog posts.
School is coming to an end fast.
I've been making new friends and even keeping in touch with them.
Ideas have been hitting me non-stop.
Life is chaotic, but i wouldn't change it for the world.

Meagan

Shall we dance?

i run in circles

i run in circles
round and round all the more
i know what to do
but they just never get done
my mistakes are repetitive
and my actions hold no grace
i know what i want bu the repetitive numb circle keeps me traped

a bit busy and sick

I hate how every time i'm on the verge of making schedules and what not allergies kick in! For the past week i have been fighting the felling to sleep all day, since by 4pm it looks like 10pm. I have been brain storming up a storm (heehee), watching freaks and geeks, cuddling with buns, and been laying down.

I have noticed that i get super excited on the begging of the months because it is a fresh start on goals and all that jazz. I have been thinking of thing I really want my blog to be that i am in love with. I have been trying to sew because I have to make a whole spring like by January (holy goodness!) I need to study for my drivers test because NO ONE like being my taxi anymore. Also I have been trying to make my room more like an inspirational studio.I have just a bit going on, but i think it feel or looks like a lot because i don't do it. Yeah, shame on me! So that is my goal really just staying busy every day!
Do you have any monthly goals?
♥Meagan

the famous leaf turning

Who thought at nineteen I would be frustrated about what people thought of me? I as sure didn't. By 13 years old I felt like I knew who I was and I was okay and a bit over joyed. I knew I was weird and that no one got most of what I did, and I dressed a lot different then most teenagers. I was fine with ME! Then came the blogging world. About 2 years ago I started my blog. But in the attempt to do that I got clouded by all the trendy things going on in the blogger world. I felt like I had to be like then to make my mark but that didn't happen. I lost myself in the polished outfits, nude makeup, and watered down interest. I am not say that all of that is bad because I do get inspiration out of it, but you can not shove yourself into something that is nowhere near who you are. I had become a box of something that I despised. I lost joy with who I was, how I viewed things, and my days felt horrible. I felt like I was to old to do anything magnificent  since so many people by my age had there stuff together.  I kept looking back at the shadow of who I was I hoped one day maybe just one day I could be me, happy, unmatched me again! About a few weeks ago I became really frustrated with who I had become, reminiscing on how I used to view the world. So shock off fake me and went on walks like I used to, started altering my clothes again, bedazzled everything, and stated dreaming again. I know I have so much in store for me, and that I just need to stay true to myself. This post might be a little clique but I am so fine with it!
Are there somethings you want to or have turned a leaf to?
♥Meagan