Monday, September 8, 2014

Why Art?

 photo 07.jpg   photo fri001_zps023145fd.jpg ever since i could remember i have been intrigued with the world of creativity. my mother is one of the most creative human being i know. but i am biased. she taught us from a young age to act the way we liked, not the way we thought we should act. so growing up we didn't listen to brittney spears, or any boy bands, we grew up to Eminem, tupac, incubus, nirvana, guns and roses, bikini kill, and a bunch of bands kids weren't allowed to listen to. now before you go judging, my mom is a great parent. anyways i remember in school i always had a problem with spelling, and reading, but that didn't stop me from writing. i could write and put my thoughts down on paper better then sharing them out loud. i'm still that way.
i new as a got older i was different from the rest of my cousins, and friends, and didn't understand why. Everyone seen art as a way to get to nowhere land fast.so i stop saying i wanted to be an artist, and said i wanted to be a doctor. it was a lie because i hated everything about doctors, but i didn't want to feel dumb about wanting to be an artist.
 photo 2012-10-27_17-59-07_181.jpg in high school i went on home studies and had a lot of free time, so i did what every person would do. Make things. i fell in love with the fulfillment of making something all on my own. i thought i was awesome and not weird for the first time in a long time. and one day well online i bumped into an amazing thing called blogging. so now i found this community that endorsed making things, and fashion, and just being awesome.
but quickly i fell into that trap where i had to fit into the "blogger" mold. i would get really sad and not feel worthy, but i forgot what started it in the first place. the fact that i wanted to be in the community where people loved creating all day long. to not feel dumb because i feel better writing things out then saying them, or taking pictures to capture a moment, or doodling because that is how i see things.
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about a year ago i moved out of my parents house and moved to the city, and started a bible internship. the internship is very demanding, with little time to get ready or things like that. so the other day i was looking my self in the mirror and i got a little scared because i was dressed so boring and with no makeup. that is not like me. so i started thing why that happened? well because i have been on my own i thought i had to grow up and what grown up wears characters on their clothes, and puts on makeup like a drag queen?
but then i realized a lot of artist and creative people do. just because i am an adult does not mean i have to dress like i am dead.
this is when i started blogging again, because i need an outlet to love art again. in my clothes, makeup, d.i.ys, poems, stories, doodles,and everything.
So why art?
Because i can express myself without words, codes, or even a gesture. you can listen to a playlist and know how i am feeling, see a picture and know what i am saying, and read and know what i am saying.
art is not just something fancy people have in there home, it is something a kid can hold on to when the world is about to fall right on top of them.


Thursday, August 28, 2014

Love Yourself : First Zine

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so as you can see, i made my first zine and it incredibly  exciting! since then i have been dreaming of make so many more about different topics that i love, am interested in and all that wonderful stuff. anywho my inspiration came from Kara and her amazing babevibes site, and zine that her and some pals came up with. If you haven't read it or printed out a million from every women you know your missing out.
after reading Kara's zine and a lot of what Jes (and some of my other fav bloggers) have to say about self love, individuality, and being a tad bit self centered, I got super pumped and busted this little baby out in like ten minutes at three in the morning.  i encourage everyone to make a zine about them self when they want to give up on the world its very therapeutic!
anyway, have you made any zines lately? or if you were to write one what would it be about?
go love yourself, and have an amazing day!

Sunday, August 17, 2014

birthday month feeling

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its true i have officially claimed august as my birthday month! since my birthday is on the second day of august i have deemed it fair for me to take over the whole month. i have dressing and feeling the
way this mood board looks hahaha. i have been wearing a lot of dresses because it is crazy hot, and
also tons on flower prints, plenty of gold and costume jewelry, bright lips, dreaming of pastel hair, denim, and heaps of comfy clothes. so in honor of august, wear/feel the way this mood board feels :)!

Thursday, August 14, 2014

alive & well

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so i am not dead, but more alive then ever. there is tons i have to tell you, from what i have been up to, to what i have been dreaming about.
but first lets start off by just getting re acquainted because i not only been gone for a bit, but i also have changed a great deal.

so my name is meagan but you can call me MEG-
i turned 21, august 2
i have been living on my own in a big (to me) city and i love it
i have been learning how to be an adult/ and love myself
i am in a bible intern program, going on my second year
i have been making real life friends
i am listening to bikini kill, vance joy, sam smith, milky chance, black keys, and kimbra
lusting over pastels and sprinkles, and all girly things
longing for all things fall fashion
studying late 80s/ and 90s style
finding the time to read
loving driving anywhere, when i want
trying out new makeup looks
and sometimes looking like a clown
rolling with punches
learning to breath and trust God
went to the Philippines
it rocked my world -will do a post
want to go thrift shopping
and getting to know myself
after taking time off from blogging, style, makeup, and speaking out i am more passionate then ever
i believe everyone has a voice and desires to use it

i am dreaming:
for my blog to be my space to get away
to meet amazing, beautiful, talented people
get my esty shop running and flourishing
make zines that inspire you
make d.i.ys
talk about style, life, art, and being human
to own a shop
to write a book
make a magazine -outcast <3 fashion too :)
there's tons more but i don't want to bore you

anywho, i so stocked to be blogging again. i am going to have to adapted once i get really busy again, but it so much easier when you want to write and pour out your heart from the things you love. so stay tuned for rants about trying to be an adult, being human, expanding my style, and consuming art all around me.